For unknown reasons, intuitions have been guiding me to isolate myself from the world outside of San Marcos. Internal guidance has strongly whispered “Be present in each moment … don’t try to write just yet … don’t attempt to communicate much with outside friends and family … just allow and experience the constant winds of growth … there will be plenty of time for writing when everything settles.”
Such winds of growth have varied greatly, ranging from gentle breezes to turbulent unexpected and unwanted storms.
My time with Nadia’s holistic healing course is rapidly approaching conclusion. I am still exploring the wonder of inner light body meditations while contemplating one more week of study and practice to integrate left brain knowledge with right brain passions.
I have spiritually played during several more sessions with Keith – energy-filled life-changing cacao sessions that have stirred up the muddy waters of deeply buried emotions from teenage and childhood years.
I have experienced powerful healing and growth with Sandra and Sharon – some of it being painful gut-wrenching emotional growth that caused me to want to simply throw up my hands and run away – but I didn’t run. Instead I triumphed to new levels of joy, love, and self-acceptance.
Seemingly magical events have graced my life – the most powerful being a swarm of migrating honey bees that decided to use my bedroom window as their new home – a synchronistic and symbolic act that still has be mesmerized. Even though the swarm is long gone, another lone bee chose to spend last night buzzing on the wall just above my head.
And through it all I simply pinch myself to make sure I am not dreaming … but then I remind myself that all of this really is just an amazing dream.
I am still the same person … or am I?
My heart and soul are the same, but I am constantly healing and shifting my projected reality.
Another week will likely pass before the written words will again begin to flow. This week I am doubling up – beginning Keith’s classes every afternoon while finishing up the final details of my studies with Nadia. Sandra is flying home to Australia tomorrow morning, and Sharon will be immediately moving into my spare bedroom for a week or so.
I continue taking notes regarding my mystical adventures and have promised myself that I will soon indulge in a burst of passionate writing to catch up – but not quite yet.
I look forward with great anticipation to the changing events of this coming week – my first week of daily inner journeys with Keith. Who knows how much additional growth through which I might pass over the next few days.
I will resume writing again very soon. Until then, I will simply continue basking in the warm glow of magic.
Copyright © 2010 by Brenda Larsen, All Rights Reserved